The worse thing than not getting an award is getting an award you do not think you have deserved.
That fate just happened to me.
For some unfathomable reason, my manager saw it fit to nominate me for the employee of the month. I got it. And along with it, the congratulations that make me feel like I’m a fraud.
But I guess my manager saw it coming. Even before the winner was announced at our month’s end gathering, he called me to his table to inform me about the possibility of me winning and advised me not to say ‘err..i really don’t know what i did. how come i get award?’.
But how can I stop myself from saying that. All I have ever done at work, is just my work - I just do what needs to be done to fulfill my responsibilities. There are people in this company with greater responsibilities who do their best to meet them too. I mean…
I feel dirty.
I can’t help but feel that I’m experiencing some sort of reverse discrimination being one of only two Singaporean Chinese in this company. Oh well… Got to justify my manager’s confidence.
I guess the good thing that came out of this is the $50 Isetan voucher which I’m sure my gf will find useful.
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